i've been really lagging the whole posting up my songs thing i was supposed to do.
sorry
but that's not why i'm writting here
i'm writting here cuz i have alot in my head
i'm hoping i can write enough of it down so i can reread it and evaluate everything that i say so i can have some kind of clarity
my parents want me out of the house when i'm 18
or more presicely when i graduate
so for that i need a job
they also say i'm lazy
and irresponsible
and disrepsectful
and it's getting hard to afford me
so i need a job
like yesterday
never seems like there's enough time
i get so wrapped up in my thoughts that i sometimes lose myself in a flurry of emotions and thoughts that echo the silent scream of pain in the chasm i have learned to call my mind
what options do i have?
not very many
but recently i've been looking into an option that i previously considered unthinkable and stupid
the marines
why not?
i for one am not the kind of person who gives a crap about what people think but i keep hearing how high school relationships don't last
and i feel like i'm holding her back from experiencing the world
my mom has already told me she would reject me as family and never allow me to see my little sister and brother
oh well
i think i should stop writting for now
i really need to control my emotions
hope everyone is getting a good amount of sleep